flat in renting rome

I donapos;t understand some people...

my friend i told her about me purging and restricting a while ago when it was really getting crazy.

but last night when i was wasted i wanted food and she wouldnapos;t let me go anywhere and i was yelling at her "Shit I havenapos;t eaten all day let me eat"

and it made me realize how much of a love hate relationship i have with my body and myself because she replied back "Iapos;m not letting you eat because you are just going to feel bad about yourself in the morning"

Then she yelled at me this morning for having a mini reeseapos;s cup. But then she cooked me breakfast.... 2 pancakes and eggs about 400 cals....what i should be having FOR THE DAY. Include the reeseapos;s and the gatorade i am about to chug and itapos;s about 500.

im giving myself 800 today. Which means if my other friends actually invites me out to eat with his parents, iapos;m only going to be able to eat a salad.

tomorrow will be a good day because paul is here and he lets me do what i want when it comes to eating.

ugh i DO NOT want to go to the gym, but i should finish cleaning up my stank apt. And go to the gym. Im shooting to get this all down by 3 and be out the door by 315 and there at 325
flat in renting rome, flat in riga, flat in southsea.